So, what now?

Well, I am about to begin my last term of school. That's right, in December I will be the proud recipient of a hard-earned Master's of Science in Landscape Design from Columbia University in the City of New York. Yeah me. But then what?
What in the hell am I supposed to do with this badge of honor? Where do I go from here?
I have no idea what I want to do.
I know what I don't want to do, so let's start there.
1 - I don't want to stay in New York. This city has killed me. It has killed Michael. And it has severely wounded our marriage. I want out yesterday.
2 - I don't want to design roof-top gardens. Roof + plants in pots does not equal a garden, I want nothing to do with them.
3 - I don't want to run "home" to Tennessee. That is not home anymore and I can't fool myself into thinking it is. I love my mom, but I don't want to live with her.

So, where does that leave me? Well, I honestly don't know. Michael and I are dreaming right now. We are playing around with one exceptionally lovely idea... I'm just afraid to get my hopes up. The past year has really done a number on most of my hopes and dreams so I'm a little weary... I'm scared. And I'm more than a little scared of graduating. It means I have to prove myself, put all of my "knowledge" to good use. Actually work at paying off an Ivy League education (it ain't cheap), try to succeed. It's just all so overwhelming.