"Why you always break shit?"

I broke my sweet angel.
I shut my babies paw in the 300lb front door of our building and broke two of his little toes. He had to have surgery to reattach the toes and remove bone fragments. He has to wear a cast and a lampshade for 1 1/2 months. He's on antibiotics and pain killers and he can't walk outside - he has to go potty on our patio.
I'm such a bad mom. See, God knows this and this is why he refuses to put a baby in my belly. I'd probably drop it on its head or squish its soft spot or give it diesel instead of unleaded...
Meanwhile, I hurt my baby so bad that he bit me on my hand which is now swolen to twice its normal size. I had to get a tetnus shot, which I feel I deserved since I almost killed my dog.